i just heard from my family, back in Bukavu, that they are again living in fear of a war that can break out any time soon. the kind of war that has been ravaging the eastern congo's countryside. the kind of war that is happening in rutshuru right now. i feel outraged. i just came from Bukavu where i spent almost three months in my family. the same terror was present when i arrived, but then faded away. i can't believe that when i just left, the same situation begins again. it is hard for me to feel here, while knowing that my family, my people, my country, my church is living in such deep terror. these are the people who share my vocation. these are the people who pray for me day and night. these are the people who sent me here. these are the people i love the most. God, how can you allow this to happen again?